Personal · Writing

Exhausted by the ridiculousness.

The universe is seriously testing me today with its balance of super shitty and super good things.

This morning started with sexual assault on the subway steps just before 6 am. Yes, it was directed at me. There was nobody around. It was kind of traumatic. I’m tired of recounting the whole story. There’s a brief description somewhere in my Twitter feed, if you must know. I can’t remember the last time I was so pissed off.

I tried to move on with my day. In the early afternoon I went to my favorite lunch place, filled a box full of deliciousness, sat down to eat…and found a giant fly (like a horsefly type creature) smushed into my food. It must’ve flown in right as the box was closing, and died as it was about to feast on my lunch. I spent a lot of money on that food, treating myself with plans to eat my way out of my fury. I threw the whole thing out.

Then the afternoon brought really good things. We received final clearance to close on our apartment, so we’re going to go and sign everything next week. And as the work day drew to an end I received an email from a lovely online magazine I submitted to, saying they’ll publish one of my short stories later this summer.

As I said before, I’m not a fan of roller coasters — literal ones OR the metaphorical kind. But I continue to be grateful that the world is making some kind of an effort to balance out the bad with some good.

A writing update: I’m very close to the end of this novel restructuring. Probably three different times now I’ve said, “Hey! I’m done with this draft!”…only to think of a way to solve another problem with a structural tweak. But I think I’m actually truly nearing the end of this revision round. A lot has changed. The story feels so much stronger now. I’m super excited about it.

And maybe the most important thing is that I haven’t gotten sick of this novel. I kept getting sick of TCW. I kept thinking to myself, “I can’t wait to be done with this project so I can work on something new.” That should’ve been a warning sign right there. This current urban fantasy project…I can’t get enough of it. I can’t wait to write a sequel.

Anyway. What an absurd day.

 

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